born this way.

i, like many in the world, am a lady gaga fan. i think that she is an excellent performer and yes, could be the next madonna. i feel like she has staying power. even though she says "orient" (which is kind of a slur) in her most recent single, i find the song wonderful and i'm glad she has essentially created an anthem for loving yourself no matter who you are. well done lady gaga. hopefully this tune will get stuck in people's heads like it has in mind for days and the message will sink in.

i am quite fond of the idea of themes. i blame this on having a virgo mother. quite frankly, i am happier when there are rules in place that i can either decide to obey or defy. for some time, i've been trying to think of a theme for this blog and the only thing consistent i've managed is to complain. well, rant actually but rant is really just a nicer (or funnier) way of saying complain. i tend to do this a lot in my daily life. i was just telling a friend that i am always impressed when someone says "i can't complain." i stare at them befuddled for a moment and think "what's wrong with you? i can always find something to complain about." it seems fair to assume that in this case, i'm the one that has something wrong with them. that aside, i find myself thinking about relationships a lot and the myriad of things that go along with being a 20something. quite frankly, i find it to be a little bizarre that it is socially acceptable for strangers to feel as though they have a right to know about my relationship status because of my age. i get it. it's a thing, an age appropriate thing: i should want to be in a relationship, i should want to have kids and so on and so on. while i'm not entirely wild about being single, i don't think that means there is something wrong with me. in fact, i think i'm pretty good at being single. i believe this because my friends in relationships tend to come to me for advice and because unlike other single girls i know, i don't need to make it a corner stone of who i am in a depressing, woe is me, find me a husband kind of way. it's probably because the growing bitterness suits me. i suppose only time will tell with this.

now there is no manual or instruction guide for how to be a single girl. liberally speaking there is a "help" feature which comes by way of girlfriends and alcohol, who like any microsoft office program, offer answers to the most frequently asked questions vaguely, as if threatening to be helpful. don't get me wrong, i appreciate my girlfriends for the insights that they bring to my life and my various issues but sometimes you need more of a google search feature on life. (i am of the mind set that there are very few things in the world you can't solve by googling it.) not that i'm such a genius at life, human interactions or anything like that, but i think it would if nothing else be a little amusing for me to write down a sort of guide, for my fellow single ladies. i'm not entirely certain if this will be insightful or anything more than a stranger offering answers to life's faq's but i'm going to give it a try anyway. because remember, i like a theme and this is way less obnoxious than an 80s themed party (though probably not as fun.)

i stumbled upon this idea to write this sort of guide when talking to my friend dave on valentine's day. i fear that i have gotten to a point of singleness where i am not even upset that i had no valentine. to me, it was monday, and not just in the way people say it to make themselves feel better about being single. while i was chatting with dave, a girl came on the radio and announced that she was single on valentine's day, sitting at home alone upset about this fact. i had an outburst. why would you declare this on the radio? by making such an announcement, you are effectively letting everyone listening how lame you feel about your life. that might be true but come on, i don't need to hear it. you are perpetuating the idea that if you are single then you must be sad and lonely. while that might be true for you, it's not for all of us and quite frankly i find it annoying. so do us all a favor, stay off the radio on such occasions where you feel lonely. actually, it seems wise to avoid all public forums (yes, i mean facebook too.) if you wouldn't scream it in a crowded room, don't announce it online or on air. thank you.

perhaps it's about time that i get back to work. i'll try this again a little later. i hope you have enjoyed it.

from the girl who was born lebanese and "orient"

until next time...