so i am sitting at work, waiting impatiently for the next few minutes to go by so that i can leave and carry on with the rest of my evening. don't get me wrong, i am quite grateful to have a job, particularly in this economy but i've been doing nothing for the better part of an hour and it is getting tired. so after creeping around facebook, catching up on the news and recent tweets from friends, i decided to search through flickr, hoping to find a new picture for the background of my twitter. i happened upon a picture that i thought was alright so i went searching through other photos from that artist. she was quite clearly female and quite clearly head over heels in love with someone. naturally this lead me to thinking about twilight. apparently last night, eclipse, the next part of the twilight saga came out in theatres. i know this because i have a friend who coaches high school cheerleading and all of her girls were overwhelmingly excited about the premiere. i'll admit it. i've watched twilight and new moon. more than once in fact. i kind of like them though i'm not sure why. (for the record: team edward.) there is something appealing about vampires and werewolves running around in regular life. the writing isn't fantastic so the books were a struggle for me to get into. the thing about twilight that i still can mock and do, is the quick obsession that developed between edward and bella. i know in the movie they kept calling it love. she loves him, she needs him, he needs her, she needs to be a vampire but really, whoa. i get it with edward. apparently her blood smells delicious and he wants to suck it out of her. and actually now that i'm thinking about it, i get it with bella too. who wouldn't want to fall for the brooding, pale edward cullen? there is a point coming, i promise.
when looking through those pictures, some of the landscapes had quotes written over them like "every time i reach for you, you slip through my fingers" and others had proclamations of love like "i'll wait for you forever" and other such sentiments. this is connected to twilight in my mind and makes me wonder, what the hell kind of love are these people feeling that i've been left out on? i have been in love before and it was great. i miss that feeling frequently and i long for it again. but i don't think i've ever felt obsessed with anyone and this is what it looks like to me. these photos, the messages, bella and edward. it's an obsession. perhaps this is normal and what i felt was some kind of watered down version of love. honestly though, if that's the case, i prefer it my way. i like still being able to function but i am curious, how is it that someone loves that hard?
from the girl who still doesn't really get emotions.
until next time...
